Feeling Unsexy...Try this

Not only do I write, but I may have said in a post or two that music is my life.  Music has the power of cleansing my soul.

So this morning I woke up feeling unsexy and a little disgusted.  Maybe it was because I spent all day Saturday in bed not doing anything except reading vampire books and watching Investigation Discovery #thatwilldoit

However, in all of my unsexiness and feeling quite unattractive inside and out, I decided to put on some music #soulcleansing.

Then I took a shower.  I stepped out of that shower feeling like I could be a Playboy centerfold #confidencelevelatanalltimehigh  .


So, my advice, if you wake up in the morning, afternoon, or nighttime and you just aren't feelin' it...try this.  I guarantee you, you'll feel different.

Step 1: Don't look in the mirror.
Go to your computer and download the following songs to your iPod.

** Sweetest Berry - David Ryan Harris (@drh3) ft John Mayer & Bob Reynolds (@bob_reynolds)

** Ain't No Sunshine - John Mayer (Bill Withers Cover)

Step 2: Do Not Look in the Mirror!


Plug in your iPod to whatever sound system you have that allows you to hear it in the bathroom.  Hit play and make a mad dash to the bathroom.

Step 3: Get in shower
Not bath...shower.  Even if you don't normally take showers, do it just this once.

Step 4: LET YOUR INNER STRIPPER GO WILD.
Don't be afraid...let loose.  No one is watching.  Gyrate your hips, rub your hands over your body.  You can do that, it's yours.  Remember, no one sees you.  It's okay.  Sing along if you want.  Have fun! Be Sexy

See, don't you feel a lot better now?

There's a John Mayer song for that

Nothing hit home harder for me than that.

Let's just say, I've lost focus.  Up until 1 hour ago, I was ready to just throw in the towel and say "Fuck it".  The words of unsupportive people kept echoing in my head.  With so much riding on a dream AND so much work to do, I just didn't think I could do it anymore.  Too overwhelmed for words.

Near tears, head in hand, I sat staring at my computer screen, praying that something...just one thing would come to mind. Something to write, tweet...say that would make me feel like all is not lost.

Frustrated beyond belief at the silence in my head, I got up to take a shower.  I turned up "the Black one" and showered, letting JM play all throughout the house.

Then I remembered this song.  This is my "get it together" anthem.  It brought me back to where I need to be.  I'm not going to give up.

Follow the Sound of Your Calling

“Everybody’s life has lines in it…chapter marks. Everybody’s life has chapter marks. Some people’s chapter marks in their life…some of them are really good.  Some of them remind you of a time when everything went really well or some of them remind you of a time when it didn’t go well or maybe it didn’t go well at first and then changed you and things went even better than they were before.  And there was a line in my life when I was 19 years old when I said to my guitar, almost literally “you know better than me. And therefore, I’m going to follow you wherever you take me” and I’m going to trust this guitar.  And I’m gonna trust this guitar.  I’m gonna trust this guitar.

And if that takes me to sleeping on a pool table, or if that takes me into a bout of loneliness I never saw coming…well, I’m gonna still do that because I think I have a calling.  And I know…and I know… and I know …that I traded certain things as a human being, I know that I did.  there are certain parts of my brain that will never be the same, certain parts of my brain that are now converted to being able to do things on this level, that are at the expense of being able to do things on a somewhat of a more docile human level.

But I know…but I know…that is the very making of a calling! Callings are not perfect.  When you have a calling, you have to give a lot up to follow the calling.  That’s why it’s called a calling…BECAUSE THE SOUND COMES FROM FAR AWAY!

And you have to follow the sound of your calling. And it’s one of the hardest things in the world to do.  It’s the reason the world is full of really talented people who didn’t go try it, and that’s okay. But to the people who hear the ringing of the bell of the calling…that sound that they have to follow, you will have to give up certain parts of your life.  And yes, I have given up certain parts of my life to follow this sound and I have found a beautiful thing in it.

On a night like tonight, I need to thank you, for making this journey feel so unbelievable and so unbelievably worth the trip and the getting lost and the found and the lost and the found on the way to figuring out what my true calling is.  I would never ever ever ever trade this back again for the rest of my life.  I love this all, thanks to you.

Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you” - John Mayer, 3/12/10 - Nationwide Arena, Columbus, Ohio

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Back in March 2010, when I heard this, I drove to work with tears streaming down my face.  I had an idea for a book which I thought could be my best work…if I decided to write it.  Then I heard this.  I know I can write and I know I have a calling to change lives through words.  I’ve just been to scared to act on it, to make the sacrifices that following it would require to follow that calling.

I credit John Mayer for alot of things that have happened in my life.  His music takes my mind to where it needs to be.  But this wasn’t music…this was a message.  I wasn’t there that night, but I felt like he was talking to me.

A month later, I started writing Untitled* and yesterday I finished it.  While this may not be the book that changes people’s lives, it is the first step.  Writing this book was difficult because for the first time, I made the sacrifices that needed to be made, I gave up the things I needed to in order to follow the “ringing of the bell of the calling”.

Was it worth it?  No matter what happens, yes.  It was.