I actually have gotten half a dozen more freckles in the last 2 years. I'm almost positive people can actually tell.
See what I mean?
For a couple of months now, I've been looking at my career as an author with a critical eye. Why haven't I sold more books? Why don't I have more reviews? Why are people not supporting me. It took a lot of wine to come to the conclusion that maybe it's not them, it's me. *ding dong*
I like to think that I'm pretty good at self assessments but really, I'm not. So I decided to break myself down and see what the real deal is. I mean seriously look at me as an author and evaluate myself truthfully.
I think this may hurt a little.
The first question I asked myself is why do I write? Because if I'm writing for a paycheck, well, I can stop right now. Thankfully, I'm not writing for the money. If/When the money comes, I will be thrilled! However, I write because
So, if money was not an option, what would you do with your life? My answer was W-R-I-T-E.
The next question in my author self assessment was, what do you think it takes to be a successful author? That's when I came up with the list and this self evaluation took a painful turn.
Dedication Creativity Confidence Patience.
Dedication...I'm dedicated when I'm writing a book. I'm dedicated to my twitter account. I could probably be more dedicated...#okayIlied I could definitely be more dedicated to the entire process.
Creativity...I got that one in the bag! While I might not be good at graphic design (I really cannot design a book cover to save my life...but there are people who can so I'm in the clear), I can come up with stories and turn those stories into books. Hell, I turned a concert experience into a Bestselling novel.
Yeah, creative, I got that.
There are certain areas of my life that I am completely confident in. What I have noticed is that I'm not 100% confident in my decision to be an author. I'm about 80% there.
Which is not good enough.
A successful author has to be fully confident in her ability to write a novel that readers want to read. She has to be confident in speaking about that novel and confident in her sell. 95% of marketing and promotion is confidence.
So I'm not there yet. I've added "build confidence level" to my to-do list.
And lastly, patience. Did you read my last post?
Not something I have an abundance of. I'm self aware enough to know how impatient I am. I want my book in the hands of readers and I want it NOW!
Unfortunately, building a fan base and dedicated readership doesn't happen NOW.
At the end of my self-assessment (oh Thank God!) I came to the conclusion that my disappointments are my own fault. #ouch
But at least now, I have no excuses because I know exactly what I need to work on and do it. If I am not successful as an author or as a person in general, I only have myself to blame.
Jeez, my mother used to say that all the time.
*deep sigh* Who has the wine?